Post by Mya on Jul 31, 2013 18:15:07 GMT -5
“I've been heartbroken. I've broken hearts. That's part of life, and it’s part of figuring out who you are so you can find the right partner.”
~Heidi Klum
7-20-13 After Rapture
I had to pick myself up. Yes I was heartbroken and yes I sat there along time after Rapture ended before getting up and going to my lockerroom. In the back of my mind, I knew it was wrong but what was I suppost to do. I was being ignored by Kai when all I wanted from him was love. Then again maybe I wasn’t meant to love. Maybe this was meant to happen for a reason.
I sigh, no, what happened out there was wrong and instead of Kai fixing the problem he did what he thought was right for me. The fucking nerve of that asshole, I loved him and he just let it go. He didn’t fight for me at all. That is his mistake and a mistake that he will pay for.
Yeah it took me another 2 hrs to leave, mostly due to the fact that I cried my eyes out in the shower before getting dressed and packing things up. I didn’t want to go home and I didn’t want to go back to my hotel. I know what I needed to do and I just hoped it wasn’t too much of an inconvience for him.
7-21-13- Toronto, Canada
I flew over night, basically I wanted to get out of Texas as quick as I could. I landed around 7:30am in Toronto. It took me a while to get through customs but I had nothing to declare. It took me even longer to find out where he lived.
Yeah I could have broken into PCW offices but I didn’t really feel like dealing with Morgan or Gambino so I did the next thing. I actually got online and googled him. Not in the way, get your head out of the gutter will you. Right now I am in a cab heading to his apartment as a million thoughts are going through my head. Will he be happy to see me? Will he reject me like Kai did? Maybe this was a mistake on my part.
The cab stopping in front of a building as the driver turns to look at me as I look up at the building.
Cab Driver- That will be $15.
Mya- You take American dollars?
Cab Driver- Yes Miss.
I hand a 20 to the driver as I open the door.
Mya- Keep the change.
I slam the door shut as I walk into the building and somehow talk my way through the security in his building. Wasn’t too hard, I bat my eyes and pucker my lips and I am in. After the long elevator ride up to his condo, I am standing in front of his door as I take a deep breath. The nerves are there and are starting to show a little. I almost changed my mind but I stopped and knocked. I was about to walk away when the door opens to show Smith Jones standing there. A look of surprise on his face as I give him a small smile.
Smith- Mya?
Mya- Hey, uh can I come in?
Smith- Of course.
I walk in as I noticed how his condo is decorated. I got to say, the man really love his white. Smith clears his voice as I turn around looking at him.
Mya- I’m sorry, it’s just I had no place else to go and I didn’t feel like going home to an empty apartment.
Smith nods in response as tears again start to flow as he comes up to me giving me a hug as I cry on him. For whatever reason, this felt right and maybe. Maybe this is what I needed at the moment for my heart to heel.
July 27, 2013- Miami, Florida
A few days go by as I am now seen walking backstage at a PCW house show. The shock of Kai dumping me is now gone as a new romance with Smith Jones has come to life. What can I say; a little attention goes a long way. I continue to walk not paying attention to where I am going as I walk down a wrong hallway. I soon turn around after I realize and head back the way I came but I stop suddenly when I see Draven Logan Kennedy standing there.
Draven- My my, what do we have here? Did the little whore lose her way again?
Mya- I was just leaving.
Draven- If you know what good for you that would be the best course of actions you can take.
Mya- Look I came down this hallway by accident, so why don't you just let me out and we will call it even.
Draven- Haven’t you learned yet that in PCW there is no accidents only hopes and shattered dreams
Mya- Look Draven, I don't want any problems.
Draven- Well you don’t want any problems huh? How about I make you my problem? That would be more then shooting fish in a barrel. So I will give you till the count of three to get the hell out of my way or a problem will be far more than your issues. That’s a promise.
I just look as he starts is count but move quickly past him. I continue to walk as I look back to make sure he isn't following me as I make my way back to Smith’s locker room. I didn’t need this to happen right now and I do hope that Draven will stay out of my way and decide that I didn’t want to cross that path again.
July 30, 2013- Fort Worth, Tx
After the quick vacation to Miami with Smith, I am now in Fort Worth, Tx and at another house show. The fans are just getting back from intermission when “Intoxicated” by Lacuna Coil comes on as I walk out wearing a black shirt with a pair of jeans as I walk to the ring. The crowd start to boo, for whatever reason I don’t know nor do I care as I enter the ring and take the mic as I look around.
Mya- I come out here and all I hear are boos? Why are you booing me for? I didn't do anything wrong. I went to follow my heart and I had it broken on me. Someone went out and made a decision for me. Why? Because he felt that it was the thing to do. If he would have actually talked to me before making that decision he would have known that I would have chosen him. That I loved him but no Kai, no you went and made the choice. The wrong choice for me. How fucking dare you. What fucking right do you have to do that? In the end though, you will regret what you did and I will personally see to it that you will regret that decision.
Mya- Again why boo me Fort Worth? I didn't make the decision with Kai. He did but hell I guess I don't matter in your eyes. My heartbreak isn't important to you. Well fuck you guys as well. I don't need you assholes judging me. Hell no, I didn't stop and worry about, "oh what would the fans think about this." No, I am now doing what I want to do for the first time in years. I went to Toronto, Canada and I tracked down Smith Jones. *the crowd boos* The very man that you fans hate with a passion made things very clear for me. That your opinion of me doesn't matter. That also goes for the wrestlers in the back as well. You're opinions don't matter, your words don't mean a thing to me.
Mya- Curtis, yeah that includes you. For some reason you want to say shit about me. Ok go right ahead because in the end, it doesn't phase me. I know who I am. I also know that you for whatever reason want to blame me for Smith's leaving The New Era. Well there is a problem with that Curtis and that is I don't make decisions for Smith. He makes his own. So his reason for leaving The New Era is his reason. I don't have a thing to do with it. Then again though, I can't blame him for leaving. The New Era, was dying Curtis. No one gives a shit about it. The threat is no longer there. It doesn't strike fear anymore. Which means that I don't fear you Curtis. What you say are empty threats. Empty Promises and more important..you can't do a dam thing without Long. That is the only reason why you are back in The Elite right? You can't cut it on your own so you go running back to Long and The Elite. So what does that make you Curtis? Long's little bitch perhaps? Huh go figure right. A bitch calling someone else what they are..a bitch to the system.
Mya- You may think you are The Elite Curtis but I think other wise. You want to talk about me jumping around well gee you're doing the same thing. Sad to say Curtis, your just like me. The only differences is when someone yells jump, you fucking do it and yell how high should I go and the ass kissing is unbelieve Curt. Glad to see it went back to kissing Long's ass. All you are is a puppet and what I am going to do is cut the strings that pull you. You Curt are going to have to decide to be on your own. Make your own decisions in life. I decided that what I want, I get. Smith helped me with that and that is why we are together. In a few days Curt, what I want is your head on a silver platter.
Mya- Sorry to tell you that but The Elite means jack to me and The Mighty will fall at Rapture. Oh and I am saying that because I can and oh one last thing, Fuck The Elite! *I laugh* Oh and your welcome!
I drop the mic as I look around again as "Intoxicated" cues back up as I slide under the ring ropes as I ignore the fans and walk to the back as the camera fades out.
~Heidi Klum
7-20-13 After Rapture
I had to pick myself up. Yes I was heartbroken and yes I sat there along time after Rapture ended before getting up and going to my lockerroom. In the back of my mind, I knew it was wrong but what was I suppost to do. I was being ignored by Kai when all I wanted from him was love. Then again maybe I wasn’t meant to love. Maybe this was meant to happen for a reason.
I sigh, no, what happened out there was wrong and instead of Kai fixing the problem he did what he thought was right for me. The fucking nerve of that asshole, I loved him and he just let it go. He didn’t fight for me at all. That is his mistake and a mistake that he will pay for.
Yeah it took me another 2 hrs to leave, mostly due to the fact that I cried my eyes out in the shower before getting dressed and packing things up. I didn’t want to go home and I didn’t want to go back to my hotel. I know what I needed to do and I just hoped it wasn’t too much of an inconvience for him.
7-21-13- Toronto, Canada
I flew over night, basically I wanted to get out of Texas as quick as I could. I landed around 7:30am in Toronto. It took me a while to get through customs but I had nothing to declare. It took me even longer to find out where he lived.
Yeah I could have broken into PCW offices but I didn’t really feel like dealing with Morgan or Gambino so I did the next thing. I actually got online and googled him. Not in the way, get your head out of the gutter will you. Right now I am in a cab heading to his apartment as a million thoughts are going through my head. Will he be happy to see me? Will he reject me like Kai did? Maybe this was a mistake on my part.
The cab stopping in front of a building as the driver turns to look at me as I look up at the building.
Cab Driver- That will be $15.
Mya- You take American dollars?
Cab Driver- Yes Miss.
I hand a 20 to the driver as I open the door.
Mya- Keep the change.
I slam the door shut as I walk into the building and somehow talk my way through the security in his building. Wasn’t too hard, I bat my eyes and pucker my lips and I am in. After the long elevator ride up to his condo, I am standing in front of his door as I take a deep breath. The nerves are there and are starting to show a little. I almost changed my mind but I stopped and knocked. I was about to walk away when the door opens to show Smith Jones standing there. A look of surprise on his face as I give him a small smile.
Smith- Mya?
Mya- Hey, uh can I come in?
Smith- Of course.
I walk in as I noticed how his condo is decorated. I got to say, the man really love his white. Smith clears his voice as I turn around looking at him.
Mya- I’m sorry, it’s just I had no place else to go and I didn’t feel like going home to an empty apartment.
Smith nods in response as tears again start to flow as he comes up to me giving me a hug as I cry on him. For whatever reason, this felt right and maybe. Maybe this is what I needed at the moment for my heart to heel.
July 27, 2013- Miami, Florida
A few days go by as I am now seen walking backstage at a PCW house show. The shock of Kai dumping me is now gone as a new romance with Smith Jones has come to life. What can I say; a little attention goes a long way. I continue to walk not paying attention to where I am going as I walk down a wrong hallway. I soon turn around after I realize and head back the way I came but I stop suddenly when I see Draven Logan Kennedy standing there.
Draven- My my, what do we have here? Did the little whore lose her way again?
Mya- I was just leaving.
Draven- If you know what good for you that would be the best course of actions you can take.
Mya- Look I came down this hallway by accident, so why don't you just let me out and we will call it even.
Draven- Haven’t you learned yet that in PCW there is no accidents only hopes and shattered dreams
Mya- Look Draven, I don't want any problems.
Draven- Well you don’t want any problems huh? How about I make you my problem? That would be more then shooting fish in a barrel. So I will give you till the count of three to get the hell out of my way or a problem will be far more than your issues. That’s a promise.
I just look as he starts is count but move quickly past him. I continue to walk as I look back to make sure he isn't following me as I make my way back to Smith’s locker room. I didn’t need this to happen right now and I do hope that Draven will stay out of my way and decide that I didn’t want to cross that path again.
July 30, 2013- Fort Worth, Tx
After the quick vacation to Miami with Smith, I am now in Fort Worth, Tx and at another house show. The fans are just getting back from intermission when “Intoxicated” by Lacuna Coil comes on as I walk out wearing a black shirt with a pair of jeans as I walk to the ring. The crowd start to boo, for whatever reason I don’t know nor do I care as I enter the ring and take the mic as I look around.
Mya- I come out here and all I hear are boos? Why are you booing me for? I didn't do anything wrong. I went to follow my heart and I had it broken on me. Someone went out and made a decision for me. Why? Because he felt that it was the thing to do. If he would have actually talked to me before making that decision he would have known that I would have chosen him. That I loved him but no Kai, no you went and made the choice. The wrong choice for me. How fucking dare you. What fucking right do you have to do that? In the end though, you will regret what you did and I will personally see to it that you will regret that decision.
Mya- Again why boo me Fort Worth? I didn't make the decision with Kai. He did but hell I guess I don't matter in your eyes. My heartbreak isn't important to you. Well fuck you guys as well. I don't need you assholes judging me. Hell no, I didn't stop and worry about, "oh what would the fans think about this." No, I am now doing what I want to do for the first time in years. I went to Toronto, Canada and I tracked down Smith Jones. *the crowd boos* The very man that you fans hate with a passion made things very clear for me. That your opinion of me doesn't matter. That also goes for the wrestlers in the back as well. You're opinions don't matter, your words don't mean a thing to me.
Mya- Curtis, yeah that includes you. For some reason you want to say shit about me. Ok go right ahead because in the end, it doesn't phase me. I know who I am. I also know that you for whatever reason want to blame me for Smith's leaving The New Era. Well there is a problem with that Curtis and that is I don't make decisions for Smith. He makes his own. So his reason for leaving The New Era is his reason. I don't have a thing to do with it. Then again though, I can't blame him for leaving. The New Era, was dying Curtis. No one gives a shit about it. The threat is no longer there. It doesn't strike fear anymore. Which means that I don't fear you Curtis. What you say are empty threats. Empty Promises and more important..you can't do a dam thing without Long. That is the only reason why you are back in The Elite right? You can't cut it on your own so you go running back to Long and The Elite. So what does that make you Curtis? Long's little bitch perhaps? Huh go figure right. A bitch calling someone else what they are..a bitch to the system.
Mya- You may think you are The Elite Curtis but I think other wise. You want to talk about me jumping around well gee you're doing the same thing. Sad to say Curtis, your just like me. The only differences is when someone yells jump, you fucking do it and yell how high should I go and the ass kissing is unbelieve Curt. Glad to see it went back to kissing Long's ass. All you are is a puppet and what I am going to do is cut the strings that pull you. You Curt are going to have to decide to be on your own. Make your own decisions in life. I decided that what I want, I get. Smith helped me with that and that is why we are together. In a few days Curt, what I want is your head on a silver platter.
Mya- Sorry to tell you that but The Elite means jack to me and The Mighty will fall at Rapture. Oh and I am saying that because I can and oh one last thing, Fuck The Elite! *I laugh* Oh and your welcome!
I drop the mic as I look around again as "Intoxicated" cues back up as I slide under the ring ropes as I ignore the fans and walk to the back as the camera fades out.